Spilling my BEANS again....

When you wanted to adopt,and you started researching countries....What factored in on where you would adopt from? Was it the age, race, condition of the child? Or was it because there were alot of successful adoptions coming home from that country, Or maybe your friends adopted from that country? What really factors in on where, why, how, and even what medical conditions you would accept? Who ever really knows, We started Madisyn's adoption back in 2006 and I had NO idea where Guatemala even was, What made me choose that country. Honestly because I found a local agency, Joined that agency's yahoo group....And there were lots of families around my county that were in process of adopting from there at the time. There were lots of referrals going out and why not there were people around to follow me through it! Now I have my beautiful little girl, Well within months of her coming home we knew immediately that we wanted to do it again but we didn't know how or from where. Our first thought was we would do Guatemala again but that quickly faded with the closing of adoptions within months of us deciding to do it again and we knew we could not afford it months after Madisyn came home. So I research countries again, Now 2007 and I'm doing more research...I feel in love with Ethiopia, but the fee's there and the on-going successful adoptions we couldn't do that either! So then came Thailand Oh how I love the faces of Thailand, the culture, the food, Everything about it...Except the way they do adoptions, I'm not patient by no means and something else that turns my stomach is where it is located, Okay what does that matter one might say and I answer I'm very claustrophobic I do not like tight spaces, Little spaces, or anything where there are alot of people!! I hyperventilate and sometimes have anxiety attacks to where I may need an ambulance...Okay so Thailand is a 24-26 hour plane ride, 10-14 days in country and the soaring prices of airline tickets I"M not excited about Thailand...I do not feel it! Maybe it is the lack of communication by the agency I don't know but I'm not feeling Thailand... BUT we know we want another child, We know we want Madisyn to have a sibling NO DOUBT about it, so after months of researching this agency right here in our own backyard, We signed with them, The homestudy is being updated for this agency, and we are already inquired on a couple of waiting Newborns...Yes you read it write a newborn, born in New York and we are in line to adopt one of these beautiful infants!!! I have all the baby items I need because we saved Grace's, We are still requesting a boy so WE have NO boy clothes but that is all we need...This agency has reasonable rates because they base it on your income, and then we have travel cost from FL to NY and then re adoption in Florida and that is it!!! That is all this is going to cost us...Are we excited YOU have no idea...We've wanted a newborn after we lost Grace and I just hid it from myself in fear of being ripped apart again...But I think this is it, I'm sitting down and holding on for this ride, I've been standing and wanting to jump but not anymore! We are here for the wait, Which may not be long if we get picked soon, maybe a couple months at the most. SO please guys know that I need prayers, We are totally comfortable and at peace with our decision. And I need my friends out there to be Happy for us too!!!! I love you guys from the bottom of our hearts....